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--cherlyn

Sometimes i wonder whether im in university or am i back in primary school. Why? Because everyone around me gets 90% and above for all their papers (one person got 98%). Obviously, i'm no where in that league but im facing that league day in and day out. You must be wondering who are these people. basically majority of my hostel friends are on scholarship; people who have worked their ass off to be where they are today, here in new zealand and getting awesome grades. well it is not that i want to compare with them but it's like day in and day out will see them kinda thing? maybe some of you will be like...yeh there's this guy who's really smart somewhere out there in the same course as i am. well for me, that person is two doors away from me, two floors below me etc. gosh i just feel so out sometimes. SIAN. not helping when i have a bio test coming up and i dont even know what a nephron or a renal corpuscle (cant even pronounce it properly) is till yesterday and today respectively. SIGH

feel so frustrated sometimes. wish i was smarter. wish i could be like a sponge and absorb information with a snap of a finger. wish i knew all of these bio shit stuff before i came. wish wish wish...wishful thinking. cant believe im left with only 1 more month thereabout here in NZ. damn im gonna miss this place when i get back to singapore. breakfast, the weather, friends, gym, cumby's dessert(damn good). oh wells. i really need to get my ass down to studying. motivation motivation. AH!!! c'mon!