i just woke up from a nightmare..
omg..
anyway i was packin my table earlier and i had the impulse to take a garbage bag
and DUMP everything away AGAIN.. muhahaha!
this is really unhealthy
ive got to stop this habit when it comes to spring cleanin
haha!

ct's are finally over, back to trainin!
i felt weak during the run this mornin
my body was tellin me that i was tired
but my mind was tellin me that i could go on:)

so many wierd and sudden things happened today..
wad in the world has the "rjc style" gotta do with us
i was blurrin away
cant tahan at all.. lol

oh well, hope everything will be back to normal asap
coz sudden changes makes everyone go "HUH?"

cherlyn!
jct s are over. there s actually two meaning to it for me. so go figure it out. so yesterday after the final paper (physics), i went swimming over hanging out with may they all and it was a TOTAL DISASTER! i went to the pool, and felt tired by the FIRST lap! can anyone beat that? yeh i don't wanna go into any other details about what happened after that. ha! so the morale of the story is : NEVER SWIM AFTER A DAY S OF ECON AND PHYSICS EXAM. NEVER! NEVER! gosh.

and i was thinking to myself: what for squeeze with all these children and people. geez. so my solution was to work very very hard next time to climb the coporate ladder and perhaps i wud be able to hire someone to build a nice pool at my place. how nice! hey its good to have goals ok! ha :)

i wont be goin for the 72k! :((( so fully recovery of my leg, here i come :)))) which will most probably be in august. yeh what for sulk because i have no choice to be happy as who wants to be the opposite - sad? right? so i reallllllllllly do hope my teammates can do it! these people are strong man, leaving aside the bulging biceps and everythin, they are mentally strong! hehe. so ALL THE BEST TO ALL THE OAC PPLE, esp if ur reading my entry. hehe:)

hs and 2 mariannes are coming over tonight! hooray :) its such a nice feeling to see close friends once again. really miss them alot. really miss ij all over again. but yeh cherlyn.. move on with ur life! :)

off for breakfast!

jct officially begins tmr!

havent finish studying chem

not even talking about the rest of the subjects

gonna leave all in god s hands cos basically its tmr and im so damn stressed up.grr

yeh agree with corrine. love the priest who gave the sermon today. comical guy. for once i listened throughout the whole sermon! :)

feeling slightly better already. corrine and i went down with fever on wednesday i tink. i ate too much pork floss and mango ( just dont be too excessive. pork floss kicks ass. fabulous stuff ). corrine drank too much coffee. so basically two people sleeping in the same room with aircon on. what can u expect?

but we are feeling great now. panadol works wonders! hehe

to corrine: u kick ass girl! woke up 5 plus every single day for one month??? while my body alarm for june hols is 8am. im thinking to myself.. do u ever feel tired? u hav done more than what u expected of urself physically, but there s a fine line between limits and magic. ( sounds familiar )... push urself to greater heights and u will find urself doing wonders. :)

the news came as a rather big blow to me
i wanted to hide my emotions
pretend everything was alright
but i exposed my feelings to myself
i was so afraid
i got to know myself better

deep down it really hurts
i think i allowed my body to take over my mind
what happened?

went for mass today
the priest preached about being a happy person
because the opposite of being happy is sad
if you had a choice
which would you pick?

i prayed so hard to keep the faith between us STRONG
i'll never ever ever ever forget the experience rowin with you
the desire to pull for each other
just wanted to tell you that it meant THIS much to to me
for all the tears that was shed
it was worthwhile

i'm not a talented rower
i'll continue to row hard
coz i believe god has a plan for me

corrine
everyone's BACK! :)

mom and dad brought home heaps of food... :D
yipee!
trainin in the mornin today
woke up too early and reached mac at an ungodly early time of 645 -.-
one of the first few times i dun see sunlight at mac in the morn

went for mass in the evenin instead of the usual 1100 mass with parents and cher
felt sleepy though i caught a nap in the afternoon.. sheesh.
and i still feel sleepy now:/

alot of random thoughts poppin in my head now...
one more week till sch reopens:/ about four more weeks to nationals.. .. !!!

Malacca Trip!

the trip was not bad. love the company! esp the girls ----shawna esp. hehe. thats was why i came despite corrine s absence. ohwells. it was basically a food trip! hoho. just kept eating. for one dinner each person 37 sing dollars. the fathers were too reckless with food choices as we munched our way through sea cucumber, abalone and scallops! haha. the kids table and adult table each had same thing. yeh. the kids were really feasting please.heheh.pictures below.enjoy!


gabrina me shawna brenda



very traditional chendol store


shawna feasting here way into the eight treasure chendol.


can u imagine this is part of the store?


mathieu

us looking chick


:)

outside the teochew restuarant. the one that cost a bomb. thats my dad




fathers unite. trying to do the jumping stint








ok. fail


gareth mat david


breakfast. horrible. luckily there was bread


chicken rice store


chicken rice balls


shawna is a fan of it. not me


the whole group!


i actually sinked my teeth into this. hate me for loving it. haha
ok i have to give a testimonial for this fabulous thing above
i forgot what it is called
it is baked fresh daily
this fella came straight out of the oven.
the uncle took it right from the baking pan
it was so hot i had to quickly use a tissue
crispy and hot
yummy
my kinda style :)

corrine

i feel so broken
the sudden feeling of being useless is taking a toll on me.
being not good enough
being a burden
being out of place
feeling shitified.

having the best of everything does not matter
its making the best of everything that matters the most
and keep believing in yourself

apart from that, parents and sis are off for hols, i'm sad to have missed the chance to go on a holiday with them. i really wanted to. oh well:( nothin much to say. i can't think properly now, cant make proper sentences. i need a bed. gd night peeps:)

cher

what corrine told me bout her coach. true story
mr yong just came back from a 240km 72 hours walk cum jog in china mountains for seven days. he told us his experience each day. omg. really shocked me like shit. inspiring la. he lost weight! he survived on power gel, instant noodles and accelerade. freezing cold in china. he struggled through first two days feeling unwell. last day he finished first among 77 pple by running through 17km without stopping but overall 69 position cos of the other six days his team mates faced lots of problems. the fastest guy took only 27 hours to complete the whole course. he helped his team mate then his team mate wanna sponsor him for his next run which wiill cost like bout 4k.

this entire thing was what my sis smsed to me right after june camp. right after i chose to give up for the 72 km thing. geez. but yeh what her coach did inspired me la. for the next try... really hope i can do it! and to all oacians out there...hope that inspired u too :))))

june camp s over. some disppointments and some things done that i wont think i wud be able to do. learn more about myself and my teammates la. great experience when i look back now over a bowl of hot noodles...hooho!!! i nv will regret attending it la. hehe.

off to dinner!

corrine

the j1 team had a team talk today and i'm glad we had it:)
it made me think alot about how lucky i am to be in this team.
before i came to njc, i used to feel super "insignificant" in all my ccas, nobody really bothers about anyone, we just do our thing and a cca session just passes by.
things really different now, i'm having my kinda like first team talk with people of my age.
never had this experience before i must say.
it felt good though, that everyone cares enough to sincerely improve the situation of the team.

coming to njc, joinin a smashin cca, meetin people who really make life that much more meaningful.
i seriously cant ask for anything more.

i'm satisfied. and full coz i just had my dinner. hee!
off to pack for canoe camp tmr! weeee.

corrine

daddy's birthday yesterday, came home from trainin not really happy:(
i guess this might be the first time i'm whinin on my blog. i hate this but i wanna reflect a little.

hmmm.. rather disappointed with myself during trainin yesterday.
did i pull hard enough?
did i give my all?
i really don't know now.

i can't help getting affected. jasmine's a great k2 partner, she tries to encourage me to push on but i find myself rather silent during trainin. mayb thats the way corrine is... but i'll try to voice out a little. it takes time.

urgh. really worried nonetheless. the pressure is kicking in.
i've been thinkin about trainin since trainin ended yesterday evening. omg.
hopefully the next trainin will be a better one.

to jasmine: keep believing in us no matter what happens. i'll be there for you. tc!

Corrine.

hey one and all. dun worrry but corrine's still alive. hee hee:)
anyway school holiday has officially started but i dun seem to find anything different than normal school days. yes, i've been still wakin up earlyyy... oh well.

apart from that, trainin and study sessions have been alright. it's been a while since i studied with a big group of pple:) still getting used to it though.

today's been a good day coz it's a rest day for me. i took a power nap earlier, told my sis to call me up and i unintentionally yelled at her for doing so:/ oh man. feelin so guilty now. so sorry cherlyn:( , corrine has mood swings when pple call her up from a nap. hehehe!

to those reading this: have a good holiday! :) train hard study hard and tc ;)