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--cherlyn

it is 11.17am now but somehow i feel that i have not slept the entire night

i went to bed last night right after eating an apple and a banana. wacko combination with perhaps tom yum noodles from dinner that caused a massive stomach acute pain. doze off in bed with my textbk, woke up only to find out that i have not changed and washed up. cold... changed and went to wash up. put away my text book and slept.

woke up. raining yet again. packed my stuff. breakfast. library presently.

im looking at my textbk and wondering what on earth is all of these.

i know my exams are coming and i have to stay strong but somehow i feel this hollow space in my heart that i constantly fail to find things to fill.

while some pple may find that getting a partner will fill that gap. the thought of that just doesnt seem right for me. it just seems v pointless from my point of view because it doesnt seem like the right answer.

perhaps getting good grades could be my answer. but good is nv enough. there's constantly pressure, self doubt and self comforting that are involved.

sometimes this feeling just makes me feel miserable and i just want to chuck it under the rug

i really wanna just sleep my day away but then again...exams are coming.

read the textbk! i know that if i make myself do it, i can. but honestly...do i?

need to stay strong for 2nd yr. this is just a phase!