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bid the maid goodbye about 2 weeks back (*actually not), i couldn't give a damn, such a lazy and sneaky maid.

the point is i've taken on the responsibility of cleaning the house. I feel that i've really grown up somehow. Like when you put yourself in the situation of having the motivation to keep the place that you live in clean, you will realise that it's not so easy as telling someone," help me clean my room, help me change bedsheet, can you clean the toilet everyday for god sake?"

and people without the heart to do it (*hint hint my ex-maid), people who don't bother, they take short cuts, skip corners and hope that you don't spot their lazy leftovers.

i think i can somehow imagine myself taking on a housewife role. part-time, not full time (*i still wanna work because 99% i wont marry a millionaire) so yea you get the point, after slogging so hard for 4 shit years in uni, i would want to make the effort and school fees worthwhile.

ok back to my point of foreseeing myself as a part-time housewife. I think i would want to give my best to make my home clean, safe, cosy. where i can return from work and relax in, be myself, away from all those dog eat dog working world and simply just be in my little bubble.

i'm gonna work towards that. i think it's more worthwhile than getting all those material goods to adorn myself when i know that at the end of the day, it won't last because fashion waits for no one. not to say that material goods are bad but i will spend cautiously ;)

did about 5h of housework earlier on. explains the somewheat delirious post above. or random if you wanna call it that. soaked from head to toe. wore a white shirt without bra. (*pls don't imagine, you may get nightmare) haha. yea so i was a wreck earlier on. took a bath and feel so good now. hands are feeling wierdly sore.

what won't kill makes me stronger ;)

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Corrine