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lately i've been getting to know myself better, i'm a clean freak. i hate being dirty and living in dirty environment. i've been been doing the cleaning of my hostel room quite frequently :D haha. i think i make a good housewife. wahah.

apart from that, yesterday was well spent with my buddies :) its seems like yesterday when we were classmates... cher and i, turn around see the hyper huayshan and wong and then right behind we have the knowledgeable chang! haha. i've let alot of friends slip by year after year, making new friends but this bunch of friends are here to stay! went huayshan house ystd and helped* to watch her pack.. haha! i was providing constructive entertainment please. actually pure slacking but seeing cher and chang and shan getting all busy packin really hit me hard, pple are leaving for a long period to pursue their dreams... makes me feel that its really hard to let go.

if i were to go overseas to study, i'd be excited to experience something new, gd exposure. but i think i'm too young and maybe even overly protected cos i doubt i'd bear to leave anything that i have now behind. not brave enough.... even staying in hall has really exposed my personality. after the end of the day's lecture, hostel is where i'd head to automatically, unconsciously.. somewhere where i feel safe and not vulnerable. but as usual, most of the time its back to emptiness... back to my computer, down to work, something to occupy myself...

3.5 months more and my twinnie cum best friend is flying off to a place very very far away. although it seems quite long from now... time really will fly and soon i'll be bidding her goodbye. roarr. alot of emotions stirring on my part but i believe much more intense on her part cos she's the one going to experience life there during her course of study.

i'm gonna make the cliche term 'keep in contact' that we always write in diaries but never really materialise most of them COME TRUE. webcam, msn bring it on! hehe.

'we live and we learn, take one step at a time, there's no need to rush. its like learning to fly, or falling in love. its gonna happen, suppose to happen that we find a reason why, one step at a time'

shall try to take everythin in my stride . try to make my relationships work. its not going to get easier.